Paul Hopper
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06 November 2007 @ 19:50:00
four years

 It's been four years since my father died.  I'm tired of going back and re-living that night, playing again the last message my father left on my answering machine followed by the message from my brother saying he was concerned because my father hadn't made it back home yet.

That doesn't mean I've forgotten, though.  That day is still with me.  My father is still at the top of my thoughts every day.  And so I struggle with wanting to allow myself to be happy and, in effect, keep on living while allowing myself to mourn my loss, a loss that's bigger than me, reaches beyond me.

I still grieve.  I still mourn.  I still cry.  I still miss my father.  I keep him near and dear to my heart.

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Cindi [link] on November 11th, 2007 - 17:09:24 ET
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Paul Hopper [link] on November 21st, 2007 - 05:16:42 ET
thank you
Thank you, I appreciate it!
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(Anonymous) on January 19th, 2008 - 10:58:04 ET

I am very saddened by the death of your father. He was a man who gave of himself and his family so that others less fortunate could have a better life. We need more people
on here on earth like him. My prayers are with you during these "sad" times of your life.

I have read all of your blogs......they bring back many
memories both happy and sad......

May "God" bestow his blessings upon you and your family now and in the days ahead.

Hope you have had positive interactions with your dad's side of the family.

Your dad loved his mother very much......"she unfortunately
died when he was still in high school in May of 1966. However, his heart was just like yours -- very broken....

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