House shopping has been very tiresome. It's an intimidating process. There's so much money involved and so much to take into consideration. I know it's not like I'd have to live there forever, but it still feels like it nails me down. On the one hand, I like the certainty of knowing the future. On the other hand, there's still so much that I don't know and I don't want to mess myself up by committing to something in one place when some other opportunity could take me somewhere else altogether different.
I think what it all comes down to is that I hate the idea of doing this alone. I've been depending on my family a lot for all of this and I'm really lucky that I haven't driven them crazy yet. (Or lucky that they've been understanding enough to not tell me I've driven them crazy.) I'm glad I can count on my family, but I'll still be moving into a new house by myself. I'm taking all the risk and responsibility. That's scary.